Thursday, June 26, 2008


i quit smoking. well only for 3 days now. i've eaten my house due to this. well a whole bag of twizzlers and so much popcorn. im edgy. moody. imagine pms in overload. they say the first 5 days are the worse. i hope this is true. at least ill be healthier right?

Monday, June 23, 2008

men that make me hate men.

i hate men, that make me hate men. show some respect. do not grab and yell obscene things. we do not like it.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Monday, June 16, 2008

the abundance of pollen gives me the sensation of constantly having just wept.

telling someone i don't trust you right now, & still an afternoon in the park. too many cigarettes. (im quitting) I hated chicago. everyone is uninteresting & more than that, unintriguing. my intrigue is the only way i know to keep people around. my hidden lives, let me suggest my hidden lives- now finding i am out of suggestions. am out of lives. if it can't find one thing i can find another. i don't know when i became so able to be alone but i can. I'm sure its only temporary. my heart is like an army and i have it surrounded. nobody, not a thousand beers can keep you from feeling alone. (remember that) i turn 24 on friday. freddy & lauren tie the knot on saturday. i bought a lucky rabbits foot & lost it. i need to eat more sushi. i need to drink less. i've been reading books on space. i want to be an astronaut. i cant even keep up with myself.